On the hunt . . . again

Well, after spending 3 straight weeks cleaning out and setting up my science classroom, I will no longer be teaching science. It was very difficult to give up the position (well, only so difficult since I still didn't have a contract). I really, really wanted to teach science. I had worked my butt off getting super organized so I could manage all my responsibilities and still be a good teacher. Unfortunately, after my first official (again, it was only so official) day, it became exceedingly clear that there was no way it would work at the school that offered me a job. So, now I'm conflicted. I feel like a giant weight has been lifted off my shoulder on one hand, but feel really shitty that I couldn't handle it on the other.